the miracle

“Goodbye My Love”

     April 2004, the first Monday in this month and the first time i wear the uniform of Saint Green School. The favorite school that I want when I’m in Junior High Scholl and it’s the favorite school in

Australia

too. Saint Green is the famous school because of the best basketball players. I love basketball, and that’s the main reason I want to enter at this school. In the beginning of study, i ‘m very enthusiastic. I have prepared everything until the time I’m in Saint Green. I imagine the happy days when i study i this school, so many story that i have, a lot of friends. And that’s the fact when i start to school in here. day by day i past with a big smile, the cheerful face, and the happiness. After i finish from school, I always watch the basketball club. I really want to practice and to have a match basketball in that field, but its pity because I can to register when I study in second class. That’s not a obstacle for me, at least now I register to become basketball team manager for boy. I’m very glad, everyday I can connect with my hobby, that’s basketball.

My name is Jess Lyn and I’m 15 years old when I begin to feel there has a shiver of love settle on my heart. My days become very extraordinary when my eyes look for him at the basketball field for the first time. His body is tall, sturdy, and wide. The skin is white and clean. The hair a little bit curly and black. His small eyes make him look cynical, until I can’t take my eyes on him. Even though I don’t know his name, class or anything about him. All that I know just his figure that make my days so cheerful. Day by day, time past away and I’m just staring at him, I don’t brave enough to know one another and start a conversation. Each time when I want to start it, my heart beat faster and I can’t speechless. I’m stuck at just keep silent in front of him. A month past away and I still know nothing about him. “Sigh” until I decide to search everything about him. Raymond, student from 2-2 class, good in study, good in music especially in guitar, good in drawing, have a lot of friends and a kindly person. All his friends very like him. He’s the star in his class and certainly a lot of girls like him.

June 2004, it’s spring when I start to begin the first conversation with him. In my mind I just think “how if he not give a respond to me?” “How if he thinks that I’m an aggressive girl or weird girl?” “How if he….?” “How if he…….?”

“Akkhh” I don’t know what I’m going to do when he stand exactly in front of me.

“Yes……?”

That’s the first word he said to me with hospitality and smile on his face. My face become blushing like an apple. I’m so shy!!!!!” He laugh to me and repeat the same word.

“Hi…I’m Jess Lyn from 1-3 class. May I acquaintance with you?”

Suddenly his kindly face and his smile disappear. I don’t know what to do, my mind is blank. He angry with me so he not answers my question.

“Raymond” I stop my step.

“I’m Raymond from 2-2 class. Nice to meet you.”

I don’t believe that he will say that. When I turn my back offer, I see his smiles over his face. I’m so glad. I can’t imagine that feeling. Until that day we get closer and to be intimate both in school and basketball hall. We back home from school together, laughing together, even we study together. He smart in everything. He so gorgeous in my eyes, sometimes he can be my friend, and the other time he can be a teacher for me. He teaches me so many things. I more astonished to him. My heart feel comfortable when I with him and I don’t want to far away from him but there’s a little thing that disturbing me. The girls in my school don’t like me when I walk together with him. “Yeah…” all the girls like him and want to get closer with him but I don’t care, I just want to stay beside him. 5 months later and our relationship get closer and closer. Everybody thinks that we are in relationship. Yeah..that’s true. That’s true that what I want will be happened between us. But I don’t know why until now I never hear a word of love from his mouth, whereas his always kind and care to me. What that is mean? Maybe he just thinks me as a friend, manager or maybe his little sister? Yeah.. Maybe one of them! Maybe he just thinks like that. Ah..i don’t want to think about it anymore. I have been closer with him. That’s make me say thanks.

That’s my fault that I’m not brave enough and give a chance to my friend to say about her feeling to Ray. He asks me to get closer with Ray. It hurts my heart and I want to ignore it. But I have already promised to her. I introduce her to Ray. At the first time Ray refuse to know her. I’m happy with that condition. But one day I see Ray and stefi chat very closely. Hurt… that’s what I feel! I’m already crying, but I hold on it. I have to keep my promise. Until that day I keep away from him. My days are blue and lonely without him. One month I hold on this feeling. I see Stefi and ray getting closer and closer. I don’t want to let him go. I don’t want that happened,Ray is mine!! That’s what my heart scream!! I don’t talk to him anyway. And then, at night

11 p.m.

Stefi call me, I surprise but I don’t want to pick it up. But it isn’t her fault. Then I decide to receive her call.

“Hello?”

“Hi..this is me, Stefi!”

“Yes, what happen?”

We talk for an hour, and of course we talk about Ray. Tomorrow in school I begin to say hello again to him.

“Good morning Ray!”

He looks at me and smiles as usual.

     “Morning, Jess Lyn!”

And we get to our class.

Stefi told me everything last night. She has been told her feeling to Ray. But Ray refuses it.

“Sorry, I already have a girl that I loved since we met, I falling in love with her.”

Broken heart and curiously are getting one in my mind. Who’s the lucky girl who has won his heart?

     The holiday starts. I graduate with a great score. And of course Ray graduate with the best score. Ray takes me with him among the holidays. He accompanies me through the holidays. And it means so much to me. Until one moment, suddenly he hold my hands..look exactly to my eyes curiously. We don’t talk for a while and my heart beats so fast. I feel something weird.

“Lyn.. I really love you so much from the first time I saw you, I already falling in love with you. Would you be my important person in my heart?”

“Yes..i love you too, and I loved to be yours.”

I said that quickly without think any longer. I feel that it is my fortune, just like a dreams comes true.

     One year we enjoyed our relationship. And my feeling to him not decreases. He stills the same Ray. I’m the lucky girl in this world. Finally, Ray received in his favorite college. And now I’m

“Goodbye My Love”

     April 2004, the first Monday in this month and the first time i wear the uniform of Saint Green School. The favorite school that I want when I’m in Junior High Scholl and it’s the favorite school in

Australia

too. Saint Green is the famous school because of the best basketball players. I love basketball, and that’s the main reason I want to enter at this school. In the beginning of study, i ‘m very enthusiastic. I have prepared everything until the time I’m in Saint Green. I imagine the happy days when i study i this school, so many story that i have, a lot of friends. And that’s the fact when i start to school in here. day by day i past with a big smile, the cheerful face, and the happiness. After i finish from school, I always watch the basketball club. I really want to practice and to have a match basketball in that field, but its pity because I can to register when I study in second class. That’s not a obstacle for me, at least now I register to become basketball team manager for boy. I’m very glad, everyday I can connect with my hobby, that’s basketball.

My name is Jess Lyn and I’m 15 years old when I begin to feel there has a shiver of love settle on my heart. My days become very extraordinary when my eyes look for him at the basketball field for the first time. His body is tall, sturdy, and wide. The skin is white and clean. The hair a little bit curly and black. His small eyes make him look cynical, until I can’t take my eyes on him. Even though I don’t know his name, class or anything about him. All that I know just his figure that make my days so cheerful. Day by day, time past away and I’m just staring at him, I don’t brave enough to know one another and start a conversation. Each time when I want to start it, my heart beat faster and I can’t speechless. I’m stuck at just keep silent in front of him. A month past away and I still know nothing about him. “Sigh” until I decide to search everything about him. Raymond, student from 2-2 class, good in study, good in music especially in guitar, good in drawing, have a lot of friends and a kindly person. All his friends very like him. He’s the star in his class and certainly a lot of girls like him.

June 2004, it’s spring when I start to begin the first conversation with him. In my mind I just think “how if he not give a respond to me?” “How if he thinks that I’m an aggressive girl or weird girl?” “How if he….?” “How if he…….?”

“Akkhh” I don’t know what I’m going to do when he stand exactly in front of me.

“Yes……?”

That’s the first word he said to me with hospitality and smile on his face. My face become blushing like an apple. I’m so shy!!!!!” He laugh to me and repeat the same word.

“Hi…I’m Jess Lyn from 1-3 class. May I acquaintance with you?”

Suddenly his kindly face and his smile disappear. I don’t know what to do, my mind is blank. He angry with me so he not answers my question.

“Raymond” I stop my step.

“I’m Raymond from 2-2 class. Nice to meet you.”

I don’t believe that he will say that. When I turn my back offer, I see his smiles over his face. I’m so glad. I can’t imagine that feeling. Until that day we get closer and to be intimate both in school and basketball hall. We back home from school together, laughing together, even we study together. He smart in everything. He so gorgeous in my eyes, sometimes he can be my friend, and the other time he can be a teacher for me. He teaches me so many things. I more astonished to him. My heart feel comfortable when I with him and I don’t want to far away from him but there’s a little thing that disturbing me. The girls in my school don’t like me when I walk together with him. “Yeah…” all the girls like him and want to get closer with him but I don’t care, I just want to stay beside him. 5 months later and our relationship get closer and closer. Everybody thinks that we are in relationship. Yeah..that’s true. That’s true that what I want will be happened between us. But I don’t know why until now I never hear a word of love from his mouth, whereas his always kind and care to me. What that is mean? Maybe he just thinks me as a friend, manager or maybe his little sister? Yeah.. Maybe one of them! Maybe he just thinks like that. Ah..i don’t want to think about it anymore. I have been closer with him. That’s make me say thanks.

That’s my fault that I’m not brave enough and give a chance to my friend to say about her feeling to Ray. He asks me to get closer with Ray. It hurts my heart and I want to ignore it. But I have already promised to her. I introduce her to Ray. At the first time Ray refuse to know her. I’m happy with that condition. But one day I see Ray and stefi chat very closely. Hurt… that’s what I feel! I’m already crying, but I hold on it. I have to keep my promise. Until that day I keep away from him. My days are blue and lonely without him. One month I hold on this feeling. I see Stefi and ray getting closer and closer. I don’t want to let him go. I don’t want that happened,Ray is mine!! That’s what my heart scream!! I don’t talk to him anyway. And then, at night

11 p.m.

Stefi call me, I surprise but I don’t want to pick it up. But it isn’t her fault. Then I decide to receive her call.

“Hello?”

“Hi..this is me, Stefi!”

“Yes, what happen?”

We talk for an hour, and of course we talk about Ray. Tomorrow in school I begin to say hello again to him.

“Good morning Ray!”

He looks at me and smiles as usual.

     “Morning, Jess Lyn!”

And we get to our class.

Stefi told me everything last night. She has been told her feeling to Ray. But Ray refuses it.

“Sorry, I already have a girl that I loved since we met, I falling in love with her.”

Broken heart and curiously are getting one in my mind. Who’s the lucky girl who has won his heart?

     The holiday starts. I graduate with a great score. And of course Ray graduate with the best score. Ray takes me with him among the holidays. He accompanies me through the holidays. And it means so much to me. Until one moment, suddenly he hold my hands..look exactly to my eyes curiously. We don’t talk for a while and my heart beats so fast. I feel something weird.

“Lyn.. I really love you so much from the first time I saw you, I already falling in love with you. Would you be my important person in my heart?”

“Yes..i love you too, and I loved to be yours.”

I said that quickly without think any longer. I feel that it is my fortune, just like a dreams comes true.

     One year we enjoyed our relationship. And my feeling to him not decreases. He stills the same Ray. I’m the lucky girl in this world. Finally, Ray received in his favorite college. And now I’m in my third grade in high school. We have been in our relationship for 2 years. And now, this is my graduation for high school. I feel that all my dreams are already becoming true. I felt the sweetest moment in high school, got the boy who I loved, and graduated with good score. But Ray absent in this important moment to me. He isn’t keep his promise to me to be the first person to give me congratulations. I’m very upset *sigh*

Kring..kring..kring.. It’s mine.

“Hello?”

I shocked and my tears are falling. I run as fast as possible to the hospital. Ray is dying. Please God..save his life! I don’t want he die!

I want to meet him soon.

“Jess..Jess..jess..”

That’s his last word. But he dies before I have a change to meet him. Yeah….now The Lord has taken him away from me. Go forever from my life. But my heart still loves him.

   

I won’t forget you..I won’t forget our memories..

If I closed my eyes, I believe that you’ll be here with me.. Goodbye my love..